I'm Getting Married!!!

Wow. Let me just say that even today I'm still in shock. Never did I really think Joe would actually ask me to marry him. I mean I've dreamed about it, Prayed for it, ans Hopeed everyday for the last almost 10 years that he would. Did I think it would happen? No to be honest.

Ok lets start yesterday.

Joel came home and I cooked dinner. Nothing big but 1st time I've cooked in awahile. So after dinner Joe got me to come help hi with the dishes. Him washing and me drying. We joked like always. I told him I was gonna take pictures of him washing dishes to put on his myspace page to show the girls. We laughed I told him we better not they might get the wrong impression, and he'd get another like me that hates to clean. So he started cleaning the stove, and I was like wow a man that cleans stoves I gotta get a picture this will help you get a girl in no time. He turns to me towel in hand and holding my ring and says "and to just think I was gonna ask you to marry me" Dawn was shocked. He handed me my ring and says so what do ya say. Well YES!!!! I was still in complete shock he took me by the hand to the living room to sit down. and I think I asked him 2 or 3 thinks if he was sure and that he wasn't joking. He said he loves me and it's time. When ever I want However I want.

After calls to family Me and mama decided that today we are getting busy planning. and I'll be Mrs. Kaufman before the end of August. proli either the 1st or 2nd weekend in August. Something small and inexpensive but nice and something we'll remember.

Eian $11 Hair Cut That Sucked

I had to go to Walmart today and get some stuff like a new printer (mine died) anyways while there I decide (against my better judgement) to get Eian's hair cut he was looking like a girl. So I told the woman I wanted his hair trimed up and wanted him to look like a boy. He wouldn't be still and she really didn't try to get him to be. Well the $11 hair cut sucked. I ended up taking him home and cutting it myself while he slept. She hair cut looked like a bowl cut in front and a mullet in the back.

Before


After she cut it


After I cut it.

Is Summer Over Yet?

before I get started I wanna say I love my boys, and would never want to change the fact that I'm their mommy. For the record I've been off my antidepressants for sometime as we have been trying new meds to find the right one. With no luck.

Boy I so loved that 3 hours a day I got without Alex while he was in school. I miss it. Alex is so into everything. Joel sleeps on the couch so mornings I've been trying to make the boys play in the back part of the house due to they are really loud not to mention they have nice rooms they never play in. (note to self. don't buy E any toys on his birthday) So i shut the door to the bath room , my room and the door to the living room leaving A & E's rooms open. But every 5 mins Alex is opening the living room door to say I love you, see what I'm doing , or any little thing he can think of. And while he's got the door open Eian comes in so I have to shoo Alex out, carry Eian to his room, come back shut the door so not to wake up Sir Cranky Pants Joel. (WooHoo I just did my 1st strikeout) This goes on til either Joel wakes up and yells or It gets time for him to go to work. Either way for 1-3 hours.

Then Eian has learned to climb and anything and everything is fair game. Not only does he climb but he stands there and most times falls off whatever he's standing on.(falls, Jumps same thing in this house.) I feel like I'm losing my mind. Terrible 2's with Alex is nothing com paired to Eian. OMG I'm not gonna survive this at all.

So lets talk about me after all it's my blog. I've been on and off antidepressants since 2002 when I graduated High school(sure I needed them long before that but thats another story). I had just came off them when I got pregnant with Alex (didnt think I needed them any more). I was on them while I was pregnant with Eian (dr oked it and i lowered my dose) came off my 3rd trimester. and they put me back on them in the hospital when Eian was 3 days old. ( I was all alone most days as E came early and nobody could get days off and I was just told my baby "might" have Down syndrome). Been on them since. Except when I run out and cant afford to see the dr. (I have no insurance at all). So anyways back to my story. I have a great dr who really cares about me and works with me seeing her Cuz my money problem. My mom and dr suspected I was bipolar ( I did long before them) so when I Ran outta refills this last time, She decided to try me on bipolar meds. Samples bless her heart. 1st was Zprexa 2 weeks no difference(she told me 2 weeks I should see changes) Then Seroquel, Nothing. So they are guessing it's not bipolar. ( I have no clue at this point.) So my mom puts in a call and talks about a high dose antidepressant at nigh a lower dose in the morning and keep taking my xanax( did I forget to tell ya I'm on that one too) anyways. So I'm ok with that whatever gets me functioning again. So I call Friday before Memorial day and the nurse tells me the dr is gone and to call back Tuesday I count down days til then only to be told she's not coming back til Friday. so yesterday they call my prescription is at the desk come get it. I lug both kids in the( who have been driving me insane) Get it head to car buckle both boys in sit down open it up to see what she gave me.

* when I came off my antidepressants to start the bipolar meds I was on 80mg of prozac a day and it still wasn't working all the way*

The dr had wrote me a script for 20mg of prozac a day. WTH!!!! if 80mg wasn't working what makes them think 20mg will. So mom calls but it'll be Monday before they call back. My mom ( a nurse) tells me to just double up til she can get the dr. Cause she knows I NEED my meds for the sake of everyone around me.

So thats why I haven't been talking much. sorry. I did manage to make yesterday a little better and scored a cute diaper for Eian. Can't wait to get it. it's got thing one and thing two on it.

Well it was Sat when I started writing this and now it's Sun. Joel just got home I'm gonna go aggravate him some :)

Addicted? Who ME?

They say the 1st step is to admit you have a problem. So here goes.

I, Dawn J(still wishes she had Joel's last name) is addicted to the colors Black and Hot Pink, and Skulls.

This is Me wearing my black frame glasses and in a black shirt with an undershirt that has pink and black lip prints.

It all started with this pair of shoes.


My Fav. shirt bought to match the shoes

My black and pink jewlrey stash notice the earrings have skulls

Sadly I bought my deortent simply because it was black and pink thank goodness it smelled good too

My lip printed shirt


Black jeans with my new Pink belt

New shirt sadly it didnt fit right so i passed it on to my sil





Pink and Black magnet bumper sticker (on my car now)

Pink shirt and zebra print shirt

Black Skull Pocketbook/Diaper Bag

Me pink and black socks with skulls

Eian's new skull oneie

Have Cloth Wipes in this Fabric

I have these ordered for Eian

If I had a little girl she'd own all these (spencers)

I also have countless pink and black shirts, underwear, Alex has his own skull shirt and the boys both have skull winter hats. I also have a black plastic nose ring with a pink stone ordered.

You decide, is Dawn addicted?

Obama What The Hay

Ok if you haven't saw this watch

All I can say is what the hay was he thinking. Now I know why I didn't vote for you. Why oh why can't people think before they speak. Come on Prez. You are supposed to be setting a good example not a bad one. An you need to do more than apologize to the Special Olympics and invite them over to bowl.