*PITY PARTY WARNING*
Ok 1st off sorry but it's my blog and I wanna have a poor me pity party.
Yes I just got back from 2 days at the beach. but it was more like
torture than a vacation.
Dont get me wrong I'm glad we went and we had fun, but you put my mom and sister together too long and its bad you put me and my sister together to long and it's bad and then you throw in a head strong I'm gonna do what I want when I want 4 year old and a
clingy, yet
independent almost 2 year old and it makes for one big bang. First off I
knew trying to fit all everyone
usually does in just 2 days
wasn't gonna work. my mom wants to lay out in the sun as does my sister my almost 2 year old wants to eat sand and play with my mom and my 4 year old wants to jump waves. I don't really like being on the beach. The sand gets everywhere the water you can't see your feet and the people
watchin you makes me very
un comfortable to start with if you take in my
anxiety and depression
issues you see where I'm going. So yesterday pretty much sucked and I was
totally glad when
Eian started to get pink so we could leave. Then you ride home in the rain slow traffic in the back seat with 2
car seats and kids. I came home thinking the kids would go play with toys and let me have a few
mins to work on the
Internet stuff i got going on but no. they wanted to be right on me and
whining about something. didn't sleep worth crap. kids wake up in the same whinny wanna be with you mood. I love them and I'd do anything for them but as a
SAHM I need a little space sometimes. I know i need my
meds adjusted or even changed i missed my
appt yesterday
cuz we went to the beach. over the last few months I've noticed how
shaky my hands are when i try to write or cut paper or anything. I haven't said anything about it but I
mentioned it to my mom (a nurse) on the 4
th and she wants me to talk to my
dr cuz it could be a side
afficed of my
meds. great Prozac seems to be the only one that works and even then it needs to be
upped so often.
to top it off money
issues have me stressed beyond
belief right now.
Eian's ssi check did not come this month so i called and they don't know why i
didnt get it
cuz it was
issued but they are re issuing me another (lady was so nice I think it's the 1st time in a long time I got a nice
person over the phone) But it'll take up to 10 business days to get here. I know
direct deposit it what i should be doing and i have filled out the thing online but they sent me a letter stating something was incorrect to fill out the paper and send it in but i can't til i get a check so i can put down the check number. child support is late and yes
joe's paying it it comes right outta his check.
I'm trying so hard to help other families in need but I'm falling on my face getting help with donated items and such. all my giveaways and fundraiser giveaways are
solely funded by me. and money is short . I did have a few people offer thank God or I wouldn't be able to do anymore. which makes me so sad to even think about it.
Then to top it off my mom gave me the money to order her a phone off
ebay i did my research and the company looked good only negatives they had looked like people who bought mint phones and
expedite new ones. so I ordered on the 24
th they took the money out of my
paypal on
th 25 and I got my
delivery confirmation number for a week if stated The U.S. Postal Service was
electronically notified by the shipper on June 25, 2009 to expect your package for mailing. This does not indicate receipt by the USPS or the actual mailing date. Delivery status information will be provided if / when available. Information, if available, is updated
periodically throughout the day. Please check again later. so I emailed them and asked if it had been shipped on the 2
nd they emailed back it missed last shipping and would go out tomorrow on the 3rd on today is the 9
th and the dc# is still saying the same thing so i emailed them yesterday as soon as i got home from the beach and no
response so I filed a complaint with
paypal. so it's a wait and see. stressing me even more my mom text everyday did my phone come and I know she needs it
her's is about to kick the bucket.
ok I'm done for now I gotta go wash
eian's new outfits so i can pick him out something to wear to the eye
dr at 2:45pm today
*EDITED MY POOR SPELLING SORRY*
